Hello Happiness

So basically, I've taken the last few weeks to seriously weed out any negativity that may have been holding me back from moving forward. I knew that once I did it, relief would feel so amazing. It was just actually doing it that was so difficult. Well, here I sit today, happier than I've been in a long time. I finally feel free, motivated, and determined again. It's amazing how people can bring you down without even noticing it. It's like, this person you think is your best friend ends up actually being your enemy. Well, maybe not so much enemy, but they just aren't right for you or your lifestyle. I've noticed that certain people around whom I was surrounding myself did just that; brought me down. It took me a long time to realize it, but I did. It was a long battle with not them, but myself. I kept trying to justify the wrongdoings of these people to make myself feel better about the past few years of surrounding myself with these people. I mean, it's scary, right? You think that these people are always going to be in your life, and then you realize they're not going to be and it's weird! It's the unfamiliar territory that freaks everyone out. But I have come to the conclusion that it always gets better. No matter what. I have found good people to hang out with, & recognized who I was shutting out for a long time was actually the people I should've been surrounding myself with all along. Well, whatever. No time like the present.

Anyway, so I see the light at the end of the tunnel with school. I was in a rut for a minute a few months ago, but I finally feel like there's only a few more pushes left in me to be done! I know what I have to do, and what I'm going to do to finish this. The good part, though, is that the worst is almost over. And it's smooth sailing starting around April. I've looked at where I want to work, and I've decided that I want to move to New York. I need to get out of California. I want to live there for as long as I can, and make a change in my life. And the state of New York does not require a court reporting license, like the state of California does. So, that makes it even better of an opportunity. I was looking at applications for court reporters in the NYC and there is a big demand for it, and having my California State License will look excellent on my resime. Now, I just have to push extra hard in the last several months of school. I know I can do it. I'm glad that I switched to night school as well. It helps a lot with the different people & set up.

Anyway that was my rant. For now. I'm just more excited about life than I have been in a long time. :)